Thursday, June 29, 2006
I hate reminiscing.
I need to have something to watch, something to do.
SOMETHING.
Fuck, anything to keep me from reminiscing.
That's why we need exams.
1:26 AM
I just want to get an ice cold beer and get out of here.
Forget the old and familiar,
and seek something new.
12:21 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Never get emotionally attached to someone for they'll always disappear.
Revel in the moment.
11:58 AM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
I thought I've placed behind the stinging feeling of disappointment by not investing my time and love in people anymore.
I actually stopped loving for a while.
Inadvertently, you somehow brought back the flow of my emotions.
Only to dishearten me again.
Sometimes I just want to feel my importance to you.
9:51 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I finally realized that
you're the reason I hesitated
To live life without regrets
I placed you on a pedestal beneath which all corners seemed dull
Cause I still remember every detail of the day we metYou were sleeping on my shoulder before even said a word
And as I recall you wore a hairtie on your wrist
It took four days and I was caught in forces I couldn't understand
Cause I'd never believed in love
But you left me convincedI'm left with no choice but to tell you
That I won't forget, I won't ever forget
But we can't be like we were in the beginning
And I can't handle that, no I can't handle that
You went north and I stayed south
Leaving endless questions in my mouth
About how you really felt
You said that we could still be friends
Something that we had never beenCause somehow we skipped that step as far as I can tell
If I can't have you the way I want
Then this needs to be over
So move on and don't look back
Cause I can't stand any other way
And I hope you can forgive me for pushing you awaySo let this be our last goodbye
Let me go
1:32 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
I've been
Sneaking glances
And writing lines about you.
What you
Think you can take back
Are the things that are going to haunt you.
This time
Won't be the last time
That I'm coming straight for your
Heart. You know how I move and
If I must say, I know that I'm worth more
Than you thought.
You've never compromised without rolling your...
I know you've
Completely torn apart
The fact that we could be.
I'm on the search and two floors high,
See the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know
Exactly who I'm after.
I can't
Begin to explain this
Infatuation that I've grown
With you, and all that has to do
With every moment that I'm here and you're not.
It's more than you thought.
You've never compromised without rolling your..
I know you've
Completely torn apart
The fact that we could be.
I'm on the search and two floors high,
See the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know
Exactly who I'm after.
And I thought that I would make it,
But you escaped it.
And you swore that you would take this
Somewhere, somewhere.
And now I'm lost and you're just fakin'
With the way you played this.
The escape game never seemed so cruel
When..
I'm on the search and two floors high,
See the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know
Exactly who I'm after.
3:36 AM
I need to wear a top that reveals my back.
But I can only think of Tubes, Halters, Off-shoulders.
KNN.
Anyway, ripped this from Dinah's.
Three Names You Go By:Belle. Bello. Beer.
Three Parts Of Your Heritage:Singaopre. Thailand. Malaysia.
Three Things That Scare You:The dark. Scary Movies. Corpses.
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:Pipi. TV. Handphone.
Three Things You're Wearing Now:Class Tee. Boxers. Hairband.
Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:Electric President. The Shore. Kids In The Way.
Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:Maybe. Insomnia. Speeding Cars.
Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):Appreciation. Solace. Arguments.
Two Truths and a Lie:I recently got into a fight. I've 2 tattoos. I'm straight.
Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:Smile. Hair. Side profile.
Three of your Favourite Hobbies:TV. Friends. Shopping.
Three Things You want really badly right now:A loving hug. As for As. Time.
Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:Greece. Spain. LA.
Three things you want to do before you die:Explore the most beautiful places on earth. Be someone else for one day. Get hit by a car.
3:06 AM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because its cold outside (cold outside) its cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside (cold inside) its cold inside
And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know were unprepared
But I don't care
Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you're invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror
What I see
And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care
Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you're invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
Slow down girl
You're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more
You never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone
I can be anything
Just because you're hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything
I promise I can be what you need
Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you're invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
10:09 AM
Wonderful.
Because I couldn't get to sleep and tossed and turned for almost a complete 2 hours, I decided to go and run. Since dawn is always so much cooler than regular PE time. Amazing? Haha. I can't believe I actually managed to drag myself out of my comfort zone early at 745am to move my lazy, usually intransigient bones and muscles.
So another 3 more hours and im supposed to wake up. I just hope I won't doze off while doing something later. No panda eyes pls pls pls. :/
8:11 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Since I can't sleep due to my haywired bodyclock, I shall blog.
Besides it being Wanyi's birthday,
today(yesterday) was the first time I ever got into a fight.
Not fight as in verbal abuses blatantly hurled at each other, but throwing punches and 'kan'ing and whatever else they'd call it.
Happened damn quickly, and ended damn quickly too. Ha.
So I don't even know where I hit him nor where he hit me. Even tho the blows were absolutely nothing as compared to the ones received from Dad, I did sustain a couple of injuries. Fine by me, not as if they didn't sustain any anyway.
And yesterday was my first time ever punching a girl, and her first time receiving one. So double bonus for me. YAY. Ha. Not that I revel in punching girls or anything like that. In fact, I would never. But if you taunt me for a fight, I'd give you one. Winning or losing makes no difference to me.
All these happened thanks to One Big Fat Fucking Lump.
And I'll definitely repay you.
Don't fucking sweat it.
5:44 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Happy Eighteenth My Lovely Princess Wanyi!! (: (:
I've said it once, twice, so many times, and it's still never enough.
I LOVE YOU!! AI SI NI LE!!!Without you, my life would seriously be SIAN JI BUA!
You make me HEE HEE HA HA all the time!
I can and will NEVER get enough of my LUBLY LUBLY princess. (: (: (:
4 years of friendship and counting!
I want to as many birthdays with you as I can and grow old with you, see you FINALLY getting a boyfriend, getting married, having kids that you'd torture, have a successful career (then I'll sponge off you), playing our tai-tai mahjong etc. till all our skin start jiao-jiao-ing and we'll have retro permed hair!! CANT WAIT RIGHT! HAHAHA.
So we may drift from friends every once in a while in life. Especially should I leave to further my studies overseas next year. Some friendships might just die away with time, but ours, I want it to last perpetually. I hope we'll always return back to being as close as we are or be even closer than before should we ever drift apart. I'm so glad and grateful that never once in my life I'd feel that I'd lose you, or that you're too excruciatingly far away from me. Because you're more than just someone to me. So so so much more. (:
I hope you'd enjoy your birthday as much as you did last year, my dear.
You know I love you, and I always always ALWAYS will. (:
6:20 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
You just keep walking.
Walking.
Further away.
Every minute.
Just walking.
Walking.
And smiling.
As I watch you from the gate.
Hoping, wishing, waiting.
With every step you take.
That maybe one day.
One day.
You'll turn around.
Retrieve your steps.
And make your way home.
Home.
To me.
3:36 AM
I never knew.
Not until today.
And somehow, softly, it rekindled what used to flame a part of me.
If only truth could be articulated through the simplest notion of the mildest touch or the sweetest gaze into coruscating diamonds in your eyes. Just like the immediate genuflection of the greedy before the face of opulence. Then we would never have been obfuscated by such a Rube Goldberg predicament.
Maybe things would have been different for you and I.Even so.
Erraticism in life overrides any regret possibly conjured.
Memories.
That's where we'll stay.
2:20 AM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry
But I can live without you
If it makes you smile
I can't wait to see you rising
I can't wait for you to shine
But I can wait for you
If all you need is time
The only thing I hold against me
Is a picture of you tonight.
3:45 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
There's a light
A certain kind of light
That never shone on me
I want my life to be
Lived with you
Lived with you
There's a way
Everybody say
To do each and every little thing
But what good does it bring
If I ain't got you, ain't got
You don't know what it's like
Baby, you don't know what it's like
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you
In my brain
I see your face again
I know my frame of mind
You ain't got to be so blind
I'm blind, so so so blind
I'm a man
Can't you see what I am
I live and breathe for you
But what good does it do
If I ain't got you, ain't got
You don't know what it's like
Baby, you don't know what it's like
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you.
11:18 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
Hurricane Isabelle was the ninth named storm, the fifth hurricane, the second major hurricane, and the only Category 5 hurricane of the 2003 Atlantic hurricane season. It made landfall on
September 18, 2003 just south of Cape Hatteras, North Carolina. Official reports state that 53 people died as a result of the storm (16 directly), with an official damage estimate of $3.37 billion (2003 US dollars).
Satellite view on Sept 15
A hurricane of the same name as me which was brewing to be a Cat 5 hurricane on my birthday (Sept16) itself.
How fucking cool is that?
FUCKING COOOLLLLLL.
6:13 PM
Lovely lovely!
Chatted with
Andrea,
Emily and
Jen.
:) :) :) :) :) :) :)
I'm a happy soul tonight! (Or rather, morning)
And I'm gonna watch Flame Of Recca since there is nothing to watch on telly. That's the only reason why I hate the weekends.
DINAH WONG AH. I DONT KNOW WHERE YOU ARE ANYMORE. PLEASE COME OUT COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARE!
SEM! ECONOMICS PLEASE!
TRICIA! MY DINNER TREAT!
RACHEL AND JOYCE! MAHJONG!
WANYI! MADNESS PLEASE! HAHAHA.
MERSER!! OMG. DATE ME OUT NOWWW.
Okay. Exhilaration over.
3:06 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006
Andrea Hui.I miss you.
I miss you too.
I miss you right now.
I missed you a few seconds ago.
I missed you last night.
I missed you yesterday.
I missed you the day before.
I will miss you a few mins more.
I will miss you for the rest of tonight.
I will miss you tmr.
And I will always miss you
Till you come home to me.
22 days more.
6:03 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Susanne wasn't working today.
:(
2:09 AM
